diff --git a/content/Health/Surviving the November 2023 Flare-Up.md b/content/Health/Surviving the November 2023 Flare-Up.md index c40bd2a..883730c 100644 --- a/content/Health/Surviving the November 2023 Flare-Up.md +++ b/content/Health/Surviving the November 2023 Flare-Up.md @@ -1,6 +1,6 @@ It now seems likely that I will survive the November 2023 [[Flare-Ups|flare-up]]. This is for a few reasons: -- Breathing function seems to have stopped declining. +- Breathing function seems to have stopped declining and has improved since the first week, no longer making sleep almost impossible. - Blood oxygen levels overnight is in the low to mid 90s most of the time, only sometimes dropping to the high 80s. There are currently about 5.5 3% oxygen desaturation events per hour, which indicates mild sleep apnea. This is nowhere near life-threatening levels. - Symptom progression appears to be slowing down or stopping. - The last flare-up lasted for about 2 months, and it has now been 2 months. diff --git a/content/Personal/Witnessing My Own Destruction.md b/content/Personal/Witnessing My Own Destruction.md new file mode 100644 index 0000000..37ff24a --- /dev/null +++ b/content/Personal/Witnessing My Own Destruction.md @@ -0,0 +1,5 @@ +The human brain is made up of an incredible number of features and processes; it is among the most sophisticated structures in the universe. And I get to spend the rest of my life watching it unravel and become mangled beyond repair, each one of those meticulously-crafted submodules brutally torn to shreds. I may lose everything, be rendered unrecognizable, and reincarnate inside my own body. It's a grand spectacle, one that challenges the ideas of free will, consciousness, and personal identity. + +The person I was will be forever lost, consumed by the same matter that allowed my existence in the first place. What will be left, nobody can say. For better or for worse, I have been selected to bear witness to the complete destruction of my own mind, still conscious as the universe's entropy reclaims me. + +I will be making popcorn. \ No newline at end of file