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content/Health/Surviving the November 2023 Flare-Up.md

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 It now seems likely that I will survive the November 2023 [[Flare-Ups|flare-up]]. This is for a few reasons:
 
-- Breathing function seems to have stopped declining.
+- Breathing function seems to have stopped declining and has improved since the first week, no longer making sleep almost impossible.
 - Blood oxygen levels overnight is in the low to mid 90s most of the time, only sometimes dropping to the high 80s. There are currently about 5.5 3% oxygen desaturation events per hour, which indicates mild sleep apnea. This is nowhere near life-threatening levels.
 - Symptom progression appears to be slowing down or stopping.
 - The last flare-up lasted for about 2 months, and it has now been 2 months.

content/Personal/Witnessing My Own Destruction.md

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+The human brain is made up of an incredible number of features and processes; it is among the most sophisticated structures in the universe. And I get to spend the rest of my life watching it unravel and become mangled beyond repair, each one of those meticulously-crafted submodules brutally torn to shreds. I may lose everything, be rendered unrecognizable, and reincarnate inside my own body. It's a grand spectacle, one that challenges the ideas of free will, consciousness, and personal identity.
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+The person I was will be forever lost, consumed by the same matter that allowed my existence in the first place. What will be left, nobody can say. For better or for worse, I have been selected to bear witness to the complete destruction of my own mind, still conscious as the universe's entropy reclaims me.
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+I will be making popcorn.