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content/Personal/God Isn't Punishing Me.md → content/Personal/God Is Not Punishing Me.md

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 - **I still feel gratitude and joy thinking about the parts of life I enjoyed most.** I'm really happy to have been alive, and these feelings only add to it.
 - **I am likely to die in my sleep, completely unaware.** This is what I believe to be the [[Sleep is a Death Filter|least painful cause of death.]]
 
-These factors create a calm, introspective time period, relatively devoid of pain and dotted with moments of joy. And, if I pass away, it will be in the least painful way possible. That doesn't sound like a punishment; if anything, it sounds like something a forgiving god would do if I was destined to die young.
+These factors create a calm, introspective time period, relatively devoid of pain and dotted with moments of joy. I am able to appreciate and enjoy the life I had and how amazing it is it just exist, to be a part of this universe, to experience it all. And, if I pass away, it will likely be in the least painful way possible.
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+That doesn't sound like a punishment; if anything, it sounds like something a forgiving god would do if I was destined to die young. It's such an incredible privilege to die this way, and it's exactly what someone like me would want.

content/Personal/Sleep is a Death Filter.md

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 My situation feels like a hybrid of instant death and having awareness of it. While I posess awareness of my potentially deadly scenario, I may not have any awareness of when my death actually happens. So, I can strike a balance: I can [[Publishing Life After Death|leave closure for people now]] and be grateful for existing, while not having to experience the scariest part - the final moments.
 
-If this is indeed what will happen, then although my life will be cut short, this is [[God Isn't Punishing Me|the best death I could have possibly asked for]].
+If this is indeed what will happen, then although my life will be cut short, this is [[God Is Not Punishing Me|the best death I could have possibly asked for]].
 
 The awareness of my risk now makes sleep feel like a filter.
 

content/Personal/Will My Family Be Disappointed in My True Self.md

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 But I don't mind.
 
-Invariably, by [[Publishing Life After Death|publishing my thoughts about everything]], I will expose fundamental differences in beliefs and outlook. Perhaps the most prominent of them being my political beliefs and lack of religious beliefs. My family might even attribute my fate to God punishing me for these differences, which is an idea that [[God Isn't Punishing Me|I couldn't disagree more on.]]
+Invariably, by [[Publishing Life After Death|publishing my thoughts about everything]], I will expose fundamental differences in beliefs and outlook. Perhaps the most prominent of them being my political beliefs and lack of religious beliefs. My family might even attribute my fate to God punishing me for these differences, which is an idea that [[God Is Not Punishing Me|I couldn't disagree more on.]]
 
 I found my existence to be much happier when I didn't force myself to believe what my family did and made sense of the world in my own way. Some may see secularism as a breeding ground for unsettling existential questions that are answered by religion, I myself find great gratitude and intrigue in realizing how [[Life is Awesomely Complex|complex and incredible]] the world and our lives are and just how much there is to see, learn, and experience.